That's Why I Need You

I haven't even written about the last few weeks of petitioning, let alone the past couple months of my last semester in college. No wonder everyone is still asking me about my schedule.

Since leaving off pro-life petitioning, I've felt courage leaving me. However, yesterday changed that. We drew partners for the Spanish Oral Exam which is coming up at the end of the semester. Guess who I got? Someone who is hard to love, someone who needs Christ, someone whom I have to be real with. The battle is not over. This isn't even vacation time. But I can't do it on my own strength. In resting, I must actively obey, and while obeying, I must rest in the strength and the finished work of King Jesus.

"King Jesus" used to sound trite, and thus meaningless. I don't think of His title that way any more.

I'm Not Alright, by Santus Real:
"If weakness is a wound that no one wants to speak of
The "cool" is just how far we have to fall
And I'm not immune, I only want to be loved
But I feel safe behind the firewall

Can I lose my need to impress?
If you want the truth I need to confess

I'm not alright, I'm broken inside, broken inside
And all I go through, it leads me to You, it leads me to you

Burn away the pride
Bring me to my weakness
Until everything I hide behind is gone
And when I'm open wide with nothing left to cling to
Only You are there to lead me on.

'Cause honestly, I'm not that strong.

I'm not alright, I'm broken inside
Broken inside
And all I go through, it leads me to You
It leads me to You
Closer to You

And I'll move,
and I'll move,
and I'll move,
Closer to You (x3)

I'm not alright I'm broken inside
Broken inside
I'm broken inside, Broken inside
And all I go through leads me to You
Leads me to You

I'm not alright, I'm not alright
I'm not alright

... that's why I need You."

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